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hotproblems) wrote2020-03-19 07:58 am
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i pretend i do not see it
You're right. The relationships I've developed here mean a great deal to me.
[Let her take another sip of that tea while she gathers her thoughts, once more.]
I suppose that's part of what makes it all so complicated. I have to operate on the assumption that I'll eventually return to Fódlan, or I fear I'll lose my mind.
[The idea that she might never go back, never see her dream reach fruition...perish the thought! The mere possibility does not exist. It's draining to even entertain the miserable concept.]
So what happens, then, if I were to...'get out there', as they say, and fall in love with someone here? I could never choose them over my legacy. But I've never been in love, so I don't feel qualified to speak on it. What if it is as overpowering as the poets make it sound?
[...ugh, how about she just...sighs, and slumps slightly in her chair.]
I'm dreadfully sorry, Lorenz. This isn't the sort of talk one usually engages in when having tea with a dear friend.
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[But oh, what does a person do when they stumble face first into a genuine feeling or twenty for someone met here, who is not not from home, who will not be spirited back to, hmm, say, the Alliance at the most opportune time by the city's whims, and one day a choice must be made, what would one do in that particular situation—
One would probably elect not to think about it until tea time requires it. Lorenz ducks down to pick up the impatient dog again, as he is very much making a face and it's about to get embarrassing.]
In that event, ah... The poets have at the very least had a point. About the heart, that is. You know, how the heart will want what it wants, and so on...
[He waves a hand, very casually. Then he must think; actually divulging anything about his real and accurate personal life was not the plan, but she is so downtrodden about all this, it seems... fair?
It seems a perfectly normal equitable return after her embarrassing flirting story, so: he clears his throat.]
In the interest of... not speaking from mere speculation: I have been seeing someone. I can assure you, these questions... [welllllll--] do not miraculously become solved, unfortunately. As we tend to agree, you will no doubt find it just as maddening as I do.
[Very reassuring! He's nailing this, or rather, it would be disingenuous to pretend he does not wonder.]
Still, there is... merit in pursuits for one's own happiness.
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(namely, is this person worthy...)]
I....well, I see! I must admit, that makes me feel a bit better.
[Because, you know, Lorenz is the yardstick by which she has started to measure her own nobility, so...surely if he finds potential partners worth pursuing here, she can do the same thing...and it would be okay. Yes! Definitely okay!
...oh goddess, she could. actually start flirting with intention, the thought is both terrifying and yet...strangely exhilarating? Such experiences, so unknown to the House Nuvelle of old...truly, she is paving a new path!]
I do hope things work out with this paramour of yours, by the way. I'm rather touched that you saw fit to share this with me.
[Does Hilda know? Has she Assessed this person....not that she would ever try to interfere (the assertion that she wouldn't trust Lorenz's judgement - appalling!), but! Only certain individuals are worthy. It's just fact.]
Can I assume this means I am free to come to you if I need similar advice again?
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Odd: it is actually surprisingly harrowing to, ah, tell a dear friend about his Relationship, so her polite surprise is a huge relief. Once again he is not shamed out of existence for not being married with children... wonders never cease.
Anyway, friendship is beautiful, he's so glad, what an excellent afternoon tea after all!!]
Oh, um— thank you. I... hope so as well.
[But before he gets too soft and sappy, ahem--]
You are of course more than welcome to come to me whenever you need something. Anything! It would embarrass the Gloucester name if I were unable to offer sound advice to a dear friend.
[Just "sound" because "expert" is too much of a stretch even for him. Halfway decent advice at no cost except, perhaps, social anxiety. It happens.]
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You've given me far more than I thought I wanted. Perhaps it wasn't that I wanted the advice, but that I needed it? If that makes sense. I...
[...ahaha. Allow her to take a dainty sip of her tea before she continues (pinky finger out, of course).]
...well, you might have noticed that I tend to have a one-track mind with some things...
[...most. things, really, but one does not point out one's flaws in such a manner, and she knows Lorenz is far too polite to do the same!]
...so I do think it is valuable, to be given another perspective. We can take meaning from the relationships we form here, even if they might not be meant to last. I think, in a way, that's true of many relationships, don't you think? There are people I knew in my youth that I no longer speak to, but I wouldn't say the time we spent together wasn't worth something.
[Hm! She's quicky becoming far more confident with this mindset. Not a problem at all! Naturally, had iy all worked out from the start, etc.]
Just promise me you won't tease me too much if I come back with more embarrassing stories.